Lately, I’ve felt like I’m on the edge of something important, a big turning point in my life. It’s both exciting and scary at the same time. I’m ready for some big changes in my life but I’m hesitant. Changes require decisions. Can I make the decisions I need to make? How can I be sure I make the right choices?
Decisions are hard for me. I keep turning the pros and cons of all my options in my mind over and over again until I make myself crazy. I’m at the point where I’m wondering if I should try to continue pursuing what I know I enjoy or do something I know I could do well but don’t know if I would enjoy it.
It’s hard for me to know what to do because I want to see results now. I want to be happy with what I do, but I need to support my family as well. I want to pursue my dreams while I’m still young, but I feel guilty for doing so.
Besides trying to do with myself career-wise, my life has been good. Not great mind you, but not having too many troubles makes life good.
I’m in a great relationship right now and it just makes me so much happier every day I wake up. Honestly, I haven’t felt this good ever. It scares me because I’m so taken aback by the whole situation. Everything about this relationship is new and completely changing the way I think of people and my own feelings about life and love. It’s a good thing really. I’m learning things I like and enjoy instead of being what someone else wants me to be.
It’s going to be really interesting the next few weeks as I try to sort my mind out, but I think in the end I will come out ready for the next challenge to come my way.
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Jun
30