Well I applied to university I earned my bachelor’s. I applied for a Master of Science in Accounting and Information Management. I hope I get accepted.
I’m excited about possibly going back to school. Like I said before, I love classes. I just worry a little, like always. I feel as though I’m just waiting again.
I do plan to take an aggressive search for internships as soon as I possibly can. I will be contacting the business school’s career resource as soon as classes start!
Things haven’t really been moving around here other than that. I got my car back today (woot!) but it still stalls sometimes at the light — though I can just restart it. It only did it once when I drove it from my brother’s house. He claimed out of driving it to and from work for a week (he drives 70 miles a day by the way) it only stalled two, three times.
So, I guess my dad and I will be taking it to Auto Zone and getting one of those free diagnostic scans to see if it can pick up why the engine light is on and/or why it is stalling out.
I suppose I feel a bit better.. what with applying to school and getting the car back. I just feel like I’m at a standstill until I hear back from the school. Not necessarily a bad thing; I just wish I was making a bit more progress.
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The last few days have been difficult. A person really close to me is going through a very rough patch and I can’t really help him. The only thing I can do is to try to push positive energy his way and to try to be here for moral support.
It makes me wish more and more that I had a stable career and a place of my own.. something I could offer for others when they need support.
Which brings me to the argument I’ve been going over in my mind. What to do about my career. I haven’t fully made a decision yet. It was over mostly of continuing with web design or go into teaching.
…but I had another urge I’ve wanted to pursue. Before going into the arts degree I was planning to get an accounting degree. The one thing that has prevented me from going back to it… is this feeling that I shouldn’t go back to school for it.
I suppose I feel guilty? I feel like I wasted my time before. I enjoyed my time pursuing the arts and I don’t really regret my degree… only the fact that it hasn’t managed to get me a job.
I talked to my mother a little about my situation and my feelings about going to school… she seems to think I should go for it, but ultimately it’s my decision. I know.
I am going to try to talk to a counselor at the school about it. Fall semester starts Aug. 21, so I should get registered if I pursue it. If I get another bachelor’s degree at the very least, I only have half the time to go to get it.
I won’t deny the thought of going back so school excites me some. I love school.
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Today dragged on and on for me. I’ve been feeling completely drained for the past two days, but especially today. Sometimes being a woman really sucks, if you get my drift.
I spent most of my day reading and just relaxing because everytime I got up my back ached or I felt light-headed. I’m hoping tomorrow I have more strength back. I really had some ideas rolling in my head that I wanted to get done today. Plus, I was hoping to start an exercise routine today. It will have to wait for tomorrow.
I received my THEA results today. In order to be admitted to the Teacher Certification Program at my university I had to pass the Reading portion with a certain grade. I had no question of passing, it was more if I could pass it with a high enough score. I did.
It has been on my mind for awhile. Do I really want to be a math teacher? It’s something I haven’t really thought about for very long. I only really went to the advisor so I could get a better idea about teaching.
I’m hesitant to actually enroll in the program because I feel like I know what I want to do, and it isn’t teaching.
I love web design but sometimes I feel like I can never catch up to those I look up to (Brian Veloso and Steve Smith to name a couple). I’m beginning to think I need a mentor in the industry to help me get started.
I feel guilty. I have been out of university for a year and a half and still haven’t much to show for it. I suppose I thought I would be out on my own making a name for myself already. I feel bad for trying to pursue what I want when a lot of people around me aren’t doing what they want to do… but can support themselves and their families.
I know what I should do. I should pursue my dream. I should keep going at it and eventually it will fall into place. I just hate depending on people while I do so.
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