Today dragged on and on for me. I’ve been feeling completely drained for the past two days, but especially today. Sometimes being a woman really sucks, if you get my drift.
I spent most of my day reading and just relaxing because everytime I got up my back ached or I felt light-headed. I’m hoping tomorrow I have more strength back. I really had some ideas rolling in my head that I wanted to get done today. Plus, I was hoping to start an exercise routine today. It will have to wait for tomorrow.
I received my THEA results today. In order to be admitted to the Teacher Certification Program at my university I had to pass the Reading portion with a certain grade. I had no question of passing, it was more if I could pass it with a high enough score. I did.
It has been on my mind for awhile. Do I really want to be a math teacher? It’s something I haven’t really thought about for very long. I only really went to the advisor so I could get a better idea about teaching.
I’m hesitant to actually enroll in the program because I feel like I know what I want to do, and it isn’t teaching.
I love web design but sometimes I feel like I can never catch up to those I look up to (Brian Veloso and Steve Smith to name a couple). I’m beginning to think I need a mentor in the industry to help me get started.
I feel guilty. I have been out of university for a year and a half and still haven’t much to show for it. I suppose I thought I would be out on my own making a name for myself already. I feel bad for trying to pursue what I want when a lot of people around me aren’t doing what they want to do… but can support themselves and their families.
I know what I should do. I should pursue my dream. I should keep going at it and eventually it will fall into place. I just hate depending on people while I do so.
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Still indecisive
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